listening to: buffalo daughter – mirror ball
Holy crap!! Simin’s having a baby! At this very moment (and most likely for the next several hours…)! We got the call right around seven from Adrian. And the reactions of myself and the other three people I was with actually reminded me of when I was in Japan on Lake Shikotsu with the other three girls on the exchange program, rocking over crazy waves in a swan-boat: EVERYONE was shrieking but me. It’s awesome that this is happening right now for a few reasons: 1) IT’S ABOUT TIME and 2) Simin actually said it would happen this Saturday and BAM. It’ll be happening on Saturday. It’s probably safe to assume that I’m not having that 11am lesson with Brandon tomorrow…
Wow. Mazel Tov to my teacher and his wife!
I’m having random introversion problems today (baha, just today?). I had my day, which was long and mind-numbing and rehearsal filled to the point where I was whimpering. And then I spent about an hour feeling awkward and unpleasant in front of a small group of friends.
I don’t know what it was. Sitting up with three other girls who wanted to gossip and talk about the lives of other people in a secretive, hand-over-mouth manner and philosophize about their own existence as though we are all the most glorified beings in the universe. It made me angry. DON’T YOU HAVE ANYTHING BETTER TO DO?? my brain decided to howl. I just can’t participate in that kind of socializing at the moment. Or maybe ever. I privately analyzed the crap out of my very being over the summer. If I have to hear one more theory of the state of my spiritual existence and core being, I may scream. We’re all just people. We come and go. Nothing is permanent. Stop talking and DO something, please.
And then I came back to the pad and found this article, via Kottke.
Seriously, though. The part about needing two hours of alone-time to recover from every hour of socializing in a large group? That fits my description more than anything else. I mean, this doesn’t go for my behaviour around everyone. There are some people who I could hang around forever and not be frustrated. And on principal, I can do pretty well with almost anybody for a somewhat extended period of time one-on-one. And then there are just other people who I can only take small doses of at a time. But the thing is that since the beginning of the year, I’ve been pretty good around everyone. I want to honor requests of time being spent together. I want to be everybody’s friend. But today I lost it and I closed it out and do you know something? I hardly cared. The sudden switch of temperament made me go through a few rounds of “…the hell,” but here I am. Still no longer caring. In addition, I’ve also found that all I ever really do in front of people during the school-day is act. Pretend. Play nice. Maybe it’s just the fatigue or the apathy talking, but last time I checked, I wasn’t known for being sweet and caring. Or even nice.
I apologize for that. I just suck in dealing with people is all.
I finally got ahold of We Love Katamari. And it’s quite lovely. There are some little things about the old game that I miss, but then there are some new things that are squeal-worthy. Such as when you’re walking around the “meadow,” some crazy beat is emmitted. And you can change that beat to a 3-beat waltz-pattern, and if you’re walking around any of your “cousins,” they join you in dancing to it. But what’s cool is that you can “run” as well, which doubles the original beat and KNOCKS OVER your cousins when you run into them. God. In essence, though, it’s the same game.
So…the house next door has roses randomly growing right next to the side-walk. And that would be great if I didn’t get caught on the thorns every time I try to walk past in the dark. But they do have a ridiculously cute calico cat that seems to saunter up to me half the time when I’m exiting the building. Which reminds me…
Cats. In sinks. WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT?? I think I spent like 15 minutes staring at various cats in sinks. You ought to do the same.