The night I’ve been dreading for probably 5 months just happened. It was nowhere near as bad as I thought it would be for me, though. I didn’t feel emotional much at all, maybe once or twice when I was saying goodbye to a couple people who I knew I would probably never see again after that point. In all honesty, I was disappointed with the movie. It was good, of course it was good, but it was nothing that they’ve had for the last two years. Seriously. Nothing compares to Matt Iodice starring in a spoof of “Ferris Bueller’s Day Off”, riding into Stroud on Kinsella’s motorcycle. Then “the matrix” two years ago (I think?). That was also pretty cool. No, that was last year, too. God…when did these movies come out? Anyway, yeah, the skits were probably good, but I couldn’t hear most of them because of a) the stars of the skits not knowing how to use a microphone or project their voice and b) the screaming junior girls sitting right behind me. Seriously, they were loud and I was pissed. Halogen Blue did a nice job, too. Played four songs, all covers, but still really good. Emily, Nikita and Andrew played their instruments for two songs, and I was jealous/overcome by admiration (or also just…yeah. jealousy).
There was a lot of hugging going on, and even though I’m usually a non-touchable person, I definitely let it slide for tonight. I hugged everybody who was a senior that I have thought well of in any way. Even people who didn’t really know me. Example, Adam O.
Me: Hey, Adam, I never really knew you, and you never really knew me, and I think you’d only know me because you were introduced to me once, but I really think you’re cool and wanted to tell you that before you left, and wish you good luck.
Adam: Thanks. Actually, yeah, I’ve heard cool things about you, too. I’m sad I didn’t get to know you any, either. Why is it you think I’m really cool?
Me: I don’t know, you just stand out as being something different, and just have a really interesting personality, from what I’ve seen (Hehe…I’ve seen Bang Bang You’re Dead, and you were in that).
Adam: Ah, cool. Well, goodbye and good luck.
I wonder if he even knew my name. That’s probably how a lot of the goodbyes went. I hugged Matt from Halogen Blue. So when he’s really famous, I can say that he went to my school and I hugged him. Ugh. Well, whatever. I’m okay now. Just lonely in school. I’ll get over that, too.
I feel bad that I’m not going to Jeff’s house, but I really don’t want to be around any people right now. Just me in my room, possibly with my cello as soon as my bow gets back. I’ll be up really late tonight, but I’ll just try and caffienate myself early. We’re watching Pride and Prejudice in English Lit (with three remaining students including myself) and it’s really good, so I won’t fall asleep during that. I love that kind of story, anyway, so it’s all good. So all in all, I’m alive, and I’ll continue to live, and being able to say that already makes me feel much better.
I think this is my last serious entry for a while. Oyasumi